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This week's been kind of, (what's a good word that an intelligent college student would use...), um, SUCKY. Hm. That works. First with the whole tuition bill thing yesterday; financial aid advisors really need to learn how to respond to their emails. I'm on a serious guilt trip, brought to me by my... lovely mother. I had to ask for $662 to pay for part of my tuition. It's for my education! Isn't it worth it?? Hah. I don't even believe myself.

But seriously, I felt really bad about asking her for the money; I was so bummed.. I could barely study for my math midterm. I think I was subconsciously punishing myself all yesterday. I didn't drink as much water as I normally do (so now my throat is hurting and on the verge of getting sick), and I didn't eat anything ALL day! I just didn't feel hungry, but my mom made me food later in the night. Weird.. I didn't know I could subconsciously punish myself. I guess because I'm at that age when I shouldn't be dependent on my parents to pay for everything. I'm 19.. I should get a job! Really though, I do.

Even after I tried my hardest to get over the whole guilt trip, I still couldn't study. I kept putting it off. I ended up studying at 11:00ish.. until 4:00. I wake up at 6:30.. that's not a good night's sleep, that's a NAP! And I wake up this morning with my throat hurting.. I hate that feeling; it's hard to swallow and I keep having to go to the bathroom because I keep drinking a lot of water.

Sigh.
My weekly complaint is over.
Thanks for listening.
Hope you're all having a better week.
Adios!
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Aww
I hope you feel better. I hate asking people for money. I asked my parents for over $1,000 for an acting school and they declined. -.- I felt horriable just for asking.
» Kirei on 2008-02-27 05:10:46

You could think of it this way: You will pay back your mom when you have your awesome well-paying career ^__^

+Good luck on that midterm!
» Mockiller on 2008-02-28 08:07:30

yes last semester titrations were easy because we had lab partners. this semester they're like "screw you! you're now in a harder chemistry class and you'll ave to do half of these experiemnts on your own"
so yeah. i don't remember if i wrote this but i actually dropped a beaker full of water. that's what prevented me from finishing on time. and it sucks because i can't do that part of the lab again. le sigh. i just hope i pass and don't have to retake the class.
» Ajibalaji89 on 2008-02-29 02:29:36

ooo ooo and do continue to drink a lot of water and fluids. yes it sucks to constantly go to the bathroom but it'll be good in the end.

and yes tuition really is depressing but don't feel like you're the only one who's dependent. i'm dependent too. i feel so crappy when i ask my dad to pick me up because i chose late classes because i was supposed to have a car. I mean i really don't ask for a lot... i usually payfor my own clothes, food, books and whatnot but i didn't have enough money for a car. i don't even need a new one.it could be an old one as long as it gets me from point a to point b without problems. i talked to my dad about it and he saidwe'll see.

and like you, i too feel guilty. i wish i couldwake up after napping. once i take a nap i end up sleeping
» Ajibalaji89 on 2008-02-29 02:35:07

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